Playground

By Zoe S. - 2024

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i don’t like to be present

most of the time i’m not there

here and then not

with every gust of air

i’ll stand behind when you talk

peer over your shoulder to see

but never really understand

how to live as one of three

i’ve followed you around

like a lost dog it seems

years of being in your presence

yet to you they’re all dreams

i don’t like being the third wheel

it feels like a stake in my heart

but i can’t bring myself

to end or to depart

i just want you to look…

want you to stare…

but i want the best for you

and I know I can't compare.

I shouldn’t feel like this

It’s childish, I know

But all I can think of

Is how I still can’t say no